Sunday, July 24, 2016

Existence's Bandages in Lispector's "The Daydreams of a Drunk Woman"

        Clarice Lispector’s work “The Daydreams of a Drunk Woman” is fraught with strings of thoughts relating to the meaning of various states of existence. One of the most prominent themes of these questions relate to what it means to be a woman unable to fully delve into, or fully understand, their problems.  The questions that arise from this dilemma are partially answered by other questions. Which in turn spawns other questions leading both the narrator and the reader further into an existential rabbit hole. The most interesting facet of these questions is that they are never directly addressed. Rather, they are stated matter-of-factly giving the impression that the narrator isn’t overly concerned with solving their dilemma. To put it into a metaphor the narrator prefers to place bandages on top of other previous bandages instead of trying to sew the wound shut so it can heal. In the end nothing is ever answered and all that remains is a large pile of bandages over an open scab of bleeding, pus ridden thought.

                Throughout the work the narrator is continuously trying to understand herself, her actions, and what the combination of the two creates. One of her usual methods of attempting to understand herself this is through self-dialogue. Early in the work, laying stomach down on the bed, she states, “‘Whosoever found, searched,’ she said to herself in the form of a rhymed refrain, which always ended up by sounding like some maxim” (Lispector 1556).  The inclusion of “which always” allows the reader to know this isn’t a onetime occurrence. Rather than continuing to ponder this line of thinking she decides sleep is a better option. She puts off this exploration of self, places the bandage of sleep over it and drifts off into unconsciousness.

                Later in the work we see her remove the bandages with alcohol. After imbibing some alcoholic beverages she explores the surrounding restaurant with a drunkard’s keen gaze. During her exploring she imagines herself more full of something. What that is isn’t directly relayed but her thoughts speak of being somewhat superior to everyone else in the establishment. The text writes, “she peered around the room, and how she despised the barren people in that restaurant, while she was plump and heavy and generous to the full” (1558). Among all of them it is only her that has some fantastic insight into the inner workings of the world.  

Through the medium of intoxication she is capable of digging deeper into her self-exploration and the exploration of the human experience. The alcohol works as a tool to escape, if ever so briefly, from the limited realm of experience in which she usually lives. The texts writes, “And everything in the restaurant seemed so remote, the one thing distant from the other, as if the one might never be able to converse with the other. Each existing for itself, and God existing there for everyone” (1558). In this moment she seems to nearly find an answer to all of her questions. Then the tentacles of human life wrap themselves around the narrator once more, pulling her back into her box of reality. It’s through viewing another woman that she returns back into the normal mode of thought.

She becomes jealous and angry toward woman with her boyfriend, not realizing that it is her own self that she is angry with. It has nothing to do with the “pious ninny so pleased with herself in that hat and so modest about her slim waistline” (1559). The narrator finds strength in her ability to have given birth to a child, and that her apparent curvy figure is indicative of pleasure. Nonetheless the narrator wanders through the rest of the text unable to rip off all the bandages and sew the wound shut.


Works Cited


Lispector, Clarice. “The Daydreams of a Drunk Woman”. The Norton Anthology of World Literature: Shorter Third Edition, Two- Volume Set. W.W. Norton. Ed. M Puchner. 2012. 1555-1560. Print.

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